10:15 a.m. - Sunday, Feb. 27, 2005
WAY TMI here!! Worried!!!
This will be a TMI post I am sure. But if you read, please send good thoughts and vibes this way. It has been awhile since I updated. I have had horrible morning sickness, was put on compazine had bad side effects from that, then was on another kind of med that worked for a few days then stopped and now I am Zofran, but it doesn't seem to help all that much.
Friday night I went to the bathroom, I have had some problems with being constipated so there was so extra hard pushing. Noah came in the bathroom and the tub was filling up, he had to go potty and was doing the potty dance and was starting to pee on the floor, so I was trying to hurry and all. So I was pushing SUPER hard and trying to finish going. I was literally rocking back and forth and shaking trying to push. This is totally gross, but its like it got stuck, like I couldn't push hard enought to get it out or something. My face was turning red and I felt like I was gonna pass out. Well when I got done, there was lots of blood in the toilet and when I wiped (front) there was LOTS of blood and some darker clots. It looked just like I had my period. I wiped several times and it was all the same. I was so scared and I am still really worried even today.
Yesterday morning there was no blood or anything, but kinda like the think gooey egg white cm that you get when you are most fertile. I didn't have cramps last night and other than just feeling bloated and like I have go to #2 and can't at this point I am doing okay. I did have a little bit of brown, not much, it was just more that other kind of discharge I have been having.
Also yesterday Kimmys birthday party was at the skating rink so I was a busy Momma anyways. I wished I could have just stayed in bed anyways. I had been feeling sick despite the Zofran and I have had a few times of gagging and running to the bathroom thinking I was gonna throw up. I was feeling more sick yesterday than I did the day before. And last night when I went to bed I was feeling really bad and usually laying down and going to bed will calm my tummy, but I ended up having to throw up anyways. So I am hoping that the fact that I am feeling yucky still is a good sign at this point.
No cramping still, so that has to be good. I am constipated still, and had tried to go #2 a few times, but there was no blood again. I feel bloated and uncomfy like I gotta go potty but I have felt like that a few days.
I am pretty sure I have a yeast infection, I have been just kinda waiting it out till my appointment which is Wednesday. I am kinda wondering could having a yeast infection make things extra sensitive down there and cause bleeding??
And I am wondering if it possible to have internal hemmroids in your vagina?? Sorry again for the TMI. In all honesty, when I was trying to go to the bathroom the other night I was pushing REALLY hard, I don't think I have ever pushed that hard before. Well other than giving birth.
I kinda wished I had gone to the ER, but I am afraid they would have said just to chill out and wait. That and being home with the 4 kids on my own, its not like i could go. I didn't get a chance to call the doc cuz of Kimmys party and all during the day.
I did talk to the OB last night, I was surprised she called back so soon although it did take the answering service FOREVER to answer.
She asked if there was cramping and if there had been more bleeding. She said to do nothing, just to take it easy and rest. She said if there is more bleeding to call them again or go to the ER.
This morning still no blood again, not even any brown or pink??
I will be pushing for an u/s if they don't find a heartbeat on wednesday. At this point I am trying to be positive, but yet I am trying to not let myself be dissappointed. I am preparing for the worst. I am 11 weeks and 3 days today. I haven't heard or seen the heartbeat yet. I am fearing when I go on wednesday it will not be there. I told Scott today that if I lose the baby, he can make his appointment to get fixed.
I had spotting before my first appointment at like 8-9 weeks, but it wasn't anything like this. This was NOT spotting. But once I kept wiping till there was no more blood, I didn't have anymore blood after that. I would say I spent 5 minutes in the bathroom wiping it way after I first saw it. And I checked my cervix, there was a glob of good right by it that looked like a clot kinda, but it wasn't very big or anything.
So thats whats been up with me. I am sorry for not being around. I just have felt really yucky. And well this now, I don't know how to feel at this point.
On a happy note, Kimmys party went good. She had a blast! I can't believe that she is 5!!! Where does the time go??
Well I better go.
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